Wondering why I blog when no one reads it. Wondering why I complain about no one reading it, when I don't really want anyone reading it because it embarasses me. Heck, I can't even be straight with my husband about things I'm thinking, and he's seen me naked!
I have trust issues. I don't trust anyone. Especially me, myself and I. That attitude really affects my relationship with Christ. I feel guilty that I don't have as close of a relationship as I should with him...yep...I'm a louse. I don't trust my Lord Jesus Christ.
Seeing it out there is kinda scary. Jesus gave his LIFE for me, and I don't trust Him? Maybe I just don't trust myself with the decisions He makes for me and for my life. When you are saved and born again, you lose yourself to Him. I've never been one to let someone just take over...when it needs to be done, I usually just do it myself because at least I know it will be done the way I want it....
So, I'm guessing I need to work on this trust issue thing. It paralyzes me. I get stuck, and I don't (want to) get out. Then I get upset that I haven't gotten anywhere....So, it begins with me. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I can trust Christ-He strenghtens me. I can...huh...that's a positive.....it's hard to find negative things in the bible (minus the 10 commandments)...
Postive, uplifting........
Now... didn't that feel good getting all that out there?
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~Me. Who is reading, but not reading, but reads if you want a reader, otherwise, I stopped by on accident... ;)
lol...just got back on here.....thanks for commenting, even though I really wanted you to comment, but that that meant you had to read my blog, which i really don't want anyone to read anyway, but you read it, so yay! lol
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