Don't forget the Present!!!

I spent most of today on my bed with numerous cook books, recipes, calendars, pens, pencils and the remote (had to watch the "House" marathon). R had the upchucks last nite, so we didn't go to church this morning. So I planned NEXT week's menu....calculating my alloted calories per day/per meal....making a grocery list....scheduling my activity time (sounds better than E.X.C.E.R.C.I.S.E), adding up the calories of certain recipes...so, NEXT week is done....but I forgot...I have to live this upcoming week FIRST!!!! I don't know why I do that....I get so geeked about 'planning' things, that I totally overlook the here-and-now...
Part of the reason is that in my head I don't *officially* start until Thursday (actually, next Monday for my work contest-WHICH I WILL WIN!!!), so, my mindset has been in the future...but I need to reel it in and get my head outta the clouds and look at today. I can't just sit around and wait for Thursday to get here...I have to live, and take care of my family, and go to work.....So, I will work on remembering the present while planning for the future....next obstacle: When the future becomes the present will the goals be accomplished....oy....that's another blog.....

Crunching the numbers.....

Well, I thought that I weighed- (ok...breathe....it'll be ok....)270-----pounds that is...ugh...I actually put that number out there..(whew....you did it, now, relax, it's in the past...keep moving on!!!)... but I got on the scale today, and it read 261.5!!! woo hoo!!! That means I didn't gain anything since I went to Pete's last class 4 weeks ago, I actually LOST!!! I guess the restrictions that I have to abide by for my 'severe' acid reflux disease is actually helping me! The next time I plan on weighing in is 1/1/09 (this will start my personal weight loss journey to my goal weight of 150 by 12/31/09), then I have an 'official' weigh in on 1/5/09 for my work's Biggest Loser contest (with the objective to lose more than anyone else...ha ha), and then another WI on 1/6/09 for a support forum (ok, another contest) on Matthew McNutt's blog ( plan on losing more than the other folks there as well....) So, numbers will be my game for the next 12 months....lol

Looking ahead....

Spent part of the day with the hubby's side of the family. All the skinny/beautiful people....I had to remind myself that this time next year, it's gonna be a whole different story. My step FIL was making conversation about exercise. I kept my mouth shut. Not because I was embarassed about the topic, but he didn't really know what he was talking about That is one of the reasons why I am so excited to start my 'program' so I can show off...that's vain, I know. But I'm feeling very selfish at the moment. I am very tired, and would love to go to bed.....

R's finger was pinched in a folding chair last night, so he was up all night stressed about that-has a blood blister, (he threw up 1x) and also because he was excited about his presents....I mean, who wouldn't!! LOL...so we haven't gotten alot of sleep.

I ate like I was at a sugar trough all day today...haven't had so much sugar/chocolate/sugar in a very long time...I probably won't sleep very long.

My Cuz (F) wants me to create a program for her, so that will be good to do. It'll be fun, and we can be a support to each other.

Tired, thirsty......nite

Starting at the Beginning.....

I've tried several times to blog. Now, I'm just going to do it, instead of try.....

Celebrated Christmas with my mom's side of the family today. Stayed upstairs with my mom and oldest niece, while the rest of the family went downstairs.

That's how it's been for years. Not because the family doesn't get along, but because my mom can't walk down stairs. She won't even try. She's over weight, arthritic, and weak. I do not want to be that....however, I am already over weight, starting to have arthritis in my knees and hands, but I am not going to let myself get weak.

I can't wait for January 1 to get here. I know, I know....don't put off your health, start now....I've heard it, done it....

One of the reasons why I'm waiting is we're having a "Biggest Loser" type contest at work starting on the 5th THAT I INTEND TO WIN!!!! I'm going to change my "lifestyle", not just starve myself to win some $$.

I've taken classes with Pete Thomas, the 1st $1K at home winner in season 2. I've learned the tricks, the methods, and the techniques to lose the weight and lose it forever.

I'm excited to be me this time next year. I'm going to look & feel good -inside & out!